“a life to gain”…..

“Life is full of agony, enervating each one’s little soul”
Sometimes I feel like I am so perturbed by something but I do not know what it is and yet sometimes I feel so much in zest. These emotions causes me to be nonplussed at times and  riled. Emotions that I can’t seem to decipher where it came from.

A blend of gloom, warmth, despair, hope, fear, courage, burden, relief, boredom and excitement that all along trapped inside me. That’s life I guess. Each emotion represents my own highs and lows from both life’s cruelties and kindness. Weakened by what seems to be my experiences from days of yore yet strengthened by what I gained from it.

 “Life never ran out of painstaking presents”
Life indeed, is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get. It is this fear that haunts me. Fear of not knowing what lies ahead. Fear that this life will be routinary right up through the end. Of course, there will always be the fear of the unkown. Fear that I might not be able to bear it’s gamut of painful presents. Yes, it is like a chocolate, so sweet yet bitter.

“-we think and dare.. wondering which one comes first, then next..”
Life is full of riddles and risks. I think, I decide, I fail, I succeed. Making decisions, taking one option and risking the other is truly the hardest part in this life’s journey. Anticipating and at the same time scared to know the consequences of my decisions.  It seems that I find these risks and failures a bane to my very existence in this one big journey called LIFE.

” - in our loss, we have everything to gain..”
In this journey, I might be harmed and the others unscathed. I might be the victor and the others a failure. I pray that I can surpass the tides of life with such great valor. In every journey comes terrible losses,  and in every loss is a gain.

- derickpt -

 

My Political Persuasion

 ***You Are a Liberal for Life***

- You’ve got a bleeding heart - and you’re proud of it.
- For you, liberal means being compassionate, pro-government, and anti-business.
- You believe in equality for every person, and you consider yourself universally empathetic.
- Helping others is not just political for you … it’s very personal too.

What’s Your Political Persuasion?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourpoliticalpersuasionquiz/

 - derickpt -

the grueling wait…

I have been on hiatus for quite sometime, I don’t know what to write, how to start, where to begin. My mind has a plethora of ideas to write on but I just cant figure out which will I write first. Well, I decided to make a follow up on my first post… and without further ado……..

3rd Friday of the year:

Three painfully soul-destroying weeks, waiting for the final countdown. The crux of the matter is, we still are waiting for a decision be delivered to us whether we stay or not, whether we SHOULD stay or not. It is definitely grueling to think when will that time be. No round-the-table discussions with one of this team’s heads, not even meetings (for formalities sake!), information were relied through word of mouth. How can that be? However, tidbits of details were given during private conversations and coaching but to the C4 , as a group, none.

Vague as it may look, a charade as this may seem - we aren’t Charlie Chaplin. We need words, confirmation, or even address us a simple email about this concern will do – but none were made. We are like candles waiting for the last paraffin wax to melt and will soon loose its light. Well, probably that’s just the way they are here. I can’t do anything about it anymore.

A lot of us is thinking about migration – well basically, that is where we are heading. Options – or are there options? Lemme correct this – BETTER OPTIONS. A new American company is actually scheduled to open it’s operations anytime on this year’s first quarter. Well for me, I will just have to cross the bridge when I get there. I can’t simply think of what will I do. I am still relying on what will happen on the final countdown. Whatever the results will be, let’s see.

GOODBYES

On the other note, half of me wants to go back home, half of me wants to stay. I really hate adieus, especially when you know it would take a lifetime for you to see your associates again. Parting times, closing times – it sucks! Just last month, a dear friend went back to Manila for good and as much as I want to stop it, I can’t. It’s a marital decision which I can’t put my fingers on.

“Friends they come and friends they go” - this is true. They just simply come and go. I have been to three different work places, this being my third and on each professional ecosystem I belong, I easily find my niche. Easy adjustments, comfortability, and cohesive relationships amongst colleagues that’s just basically what connects me to them.

With the final countdown in mind, we just have to braise ourselves to what will be the final say of this team’s heads. Albeit C4 is reeking with different emotions and worries in regards to the hanging status we are at, we just have to enjoy each other’s companies and make the most of what we have right now.

Bonne Chance to all of us!!

-derickpt-